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Today is the third day since I’ve stopped taking the pil.

It feels weird, cause my body definitely wants one! XD

I think I have a lot of adjustments going on right now in my body, it’s making me feel sick all day.

Another day of work,

I’ll make it trough.

I know how I always say ‘this is the worst day ever’, but today really was.

My parents were supposed to go to the vet at this time, to put him asleep. Tho my mum woke me up at 8:30 telling me that the vet was going to be here in 30 to 45 minutes because they weren’t able to move the dog anywhere. I came downstairs after another cry and saw him. Lying on the ground with towels beneath him, breathing fast and hard, with my mum sitting next to him. Crying. I went down to the ground to stroke him a bit and gave him a kiss. After a while the vet came and talked us through what was going to happen. She gave him the first shot that would calm him down like with an operation. He started to breath more slowly and look a bit sleepy with his eyes. After a minute or 10 she gave him the shot in his heart.

It took him only five minutes to fall asleep. Tho we sat there for another 10 minutes. Crying our eyes out. The scariest thing about it was that his eyes didn’t close. The only thing that confirmed that he was asleep was that he was not breathing anymore and after another 10 minutes the vet listened to his heart. It was all quiet now. No more sounds. No more noise. I’ve never seen my mum, nor my dad, cry this hard. Cry this long, about anything. The dog was the only thing she could talk to when the rest was out for work or school.

It’s weird now, walking around downstairs. Still used to the fact that there’s supposed to be a black thing lying or walking around in the corner of your eyes. When no one talks and the radio and TV are shut down, it will be really, really quiet. At night when you think you hear something, there is no way you can still tell yourself ‘no it’s not a ghost, not a burglar, it’s the dog.’

A miracle has happened.

My mother decided not to cook tonight.

So we’re not having the average potatoes with veg.

but,

Frieeeeeeeeeeees!

THAT’S A FIRST

I forgot how much you can do on a Saturday!

I shopped for my camera, which you probably already noticed. And I worked on my tan the rest of the day! XD

At least I enjoyed my day and I didn’t call in ‘sick’ for nothing.

I just hope that one of my colleague’s didn’t see me.. She didn’t seem to notice me while I was standing right in front of her with my dad..

But I can lie like no one else, so if she comes up with it the next time I see her at work, I’ll just lie. “Huh? Did you see me? Nooooo way, not possible, I went straight back to bed after I called! I think you saw someone else.”

I’m gooooood.

janaaahaa:

Don’t you just hate it when you are in a fight and you know so many things you should’ve said right after you ‘said it all’ but clearly you haven’t. But you only figure that out when it’s too late.. And it seems stupid to start arguing again about the exact same thing just cause you have better things to say now.

I know each and every one of you knows what I mean. And I also know each and every one of you hates it.

Let’s hate together:D

;)xx

I like it how bunny’s are able to clean their ears just by grabbing them with their two paws and lick them.